Before you know what kindness really is, you must lose things;
feel the future dissolve in a moment like salt in a weakened broth.
Naomi Shihab Nye
There’s beauty in my breakdown. The past few weeks have been a lesson, an equal lesson in patience, love and loss. Over the last few days I’ve thrown myself into fits of frustration and I’ve made myself laugh within the same moment, in an instant memory recall of the last eight years with Sake. What’s been the most important to understand is that my deep love, in turn – my deep sadness, is a selfish, albeit human, emotion because I couldn’t have him here to watch over me. Our best memories were every day memories, morning kisses and pouncing on my head, late night cuddle sessions and secret treats. Sake brought friendship and love into my life in the best ways, always curling up in the most deserving of laps with a gregarious smile fixed to his furry face.
I remember one night back in 2008, I’d just gotten back from an all night party in Santa Barbara and was trying to pass out – albeit at 2pm. Sake strutted into the room like he owned the place and perched next to me. Slowly, as I watched him – a small figure floated above his head, a little pudgy with an orange glow and solemn stare, legs and arms crossed while it gazed into infinity. From that moment on, I considered Sake my little Buddha kitty and realized that as much as I was Sake’s owner, he was perpetually my teacher. So, I’d like to bestow a few life lessons that I’ve proudly learned from my little man. May his legacy live on.
When in doubt, take a nap.
There is always more time for cuddling
If you can play with it, it’s a toy
Make an entrance
If you can sleep on it, it’s a bed
Life is more fun with friends
Stop and smell the flowers
Morning kisses are the best
Give yourself a break
Look cute, people are watching
When you’re happy, announce it to the world.
There are two means of refuge from the misery of life — music and cats.